Step on with a Ridiculous Faith

To Pete for my archive. Dear Lord Jesus, I've been living on my own. Setting and establishing my own beliefs instead of your purpose, of course I doubt that it will be harmful to me. I think you've been talking to me lately, but I have acting like an angry and childish individual. I've been thinking that I could change the world with my bare hands, itching to use it to create something and give it back to the world. Jesus, I've been silly, I am blind to the things around me. My family who had been calling to my attention, daddy, he's been acting funny on purpose. Kept asking me to buy "goreng pisang" for him. He usually doesn't bug me with these things, but I guess he sponsored me a laptop and he expect me to give him something small back. I decided not to care because I want to heed on to the plans I wanted, I wanted my OWN WAY. I don’t want anybody to be in my way even Dad. Jesus, I was reminded with your voice in the Proverbs of Solomon, that the highest wisdom comes by first obeying and heeding the command of my parents. That righteous will be rewarded when they completes a command. Perhaps, it's time for me to let go, and have you take control. What's important is not what my hands can do but what you can do through me, but reluctantly I'll say for your kingdom. Maybe if I know what's your glory, perhaps it will be as reluctant as of now. As today's devotion, perhaps if you call, please allow me to be Elisha leaving everything, serve his own people for the last time, and went out to Elijah. In Jesus name, Amen.