2014

Dear Pete,

Happy New Year! I apologize that you're wasn't the first thing I should wish to, but at least you'll get the opportunity to archive my thoughts. (That's your purpose anyway)

It may seems that I'm forcing to come out with something to write for the new year. because it is a mainstream thing to write new hopes and resolutions for the new year. I think I should at least write what I'm hoping to see in 2014, keeping track the blessings and the stages of my thoughts.

Well I had lots of fun in 2013, I couldn't say it was entirely a pleasant year, but with the turnover of events, the gushes of ill-news and the feelings that comes after it, really sharpens my character. The experiences had molded me, and I've became different. I had to abandon some friendships from church in achieving my route of possible dreams and achievements. Rest assured again Pete, I still kept a "certain" relationship and my faith with God is still undeniably in existence.

What I hope for 2014....

As the second year in my study course, my utmost desire is to achieve and overwhelm with wisdom and knowledge like the desire of King Solomon. I will be quick to discern the life's of my students and colleagues, changing their lives as God has changed mine. But of course, I need to draw strength upon him.

Perhaps I would love to meet some old friends that I wish I could give them a long tight hug.

As for the hurting from 2013, Pete I guess I would want to write a note to my church.

Church, I'm sorry that it is still not the time that I should return to your activities. The world I'm facing during these days are intensively challenging like dashing through the gates of hell. Of course I will be returning occasionally, but only as a family or you would say an occasional participant. Keep me in prayers is all I hope, though there are some disagreements between us, deep down I know that you still are my brothers and sisters in Christ, and there will be a day we will worship God like there's no more sorrow. Allow me with time of 2 years, to go through what is in front of me, I am serving God in a way that I myself do not know or desire, each of my days are tiring and demeaning, but I am holding on the hope which is Christ my Lord.

I have to resign my position as the youth president, to allow the church to move on towards more opportunities and not be dragged to my lack of response. In many reasons, I do not deserve to have that position, but I wonder why God allowed it to be done so in the first place? While the youth was growing, I received many abusive comments from the church towards the way I was managing, there were times I have to fight mental battles in my mind, and how I wish I could share to all of you, but I do not have the chance to.

I will write an official and formal letter to the church administration for the resignation of my position.

But Pete, Who should I give this to? For I know, none is able to handle this information.